wahidah!

2011-04-22T12:59:00.002+08:00

i lost my freaking phone yesterday):
do to sheer stupidity and my carelessness.
was rushing for the bus, had my Mp3 on and was putting money in the wallet.
something dropped but when i checked my wallet the money is still there.
and so guess what dropped?! and i didn't check.
i bet it is someone who stayed at my block who saw it and took it.i realize it before getting on the next bus.
but being 20mins late is tooooooo late already. damn!
lesson learnt: never to plug in my MP3 at a loud volume anymore else i would have clearly heard the phone dropped. and don't ever multitask.
):

2011-04-04T16:08:00.011+08:00

heloooo♥
went to the arts and science museum on friday for learning journey.
so i concluded museums are not all boring(: i had fun with the exhibits.
no flash photography though!):
others had cca so it was only me and char(:
pictures.

my fav. place(:

the shipwreck exhibition wasn't so exciting as it was all artifacts.

their so classy washroom.hahah

there is a lot of pictures but i am pressed for time.
gtg.
xoxo

ps mum will murder me after meet the parent session:/ AH!

2011-03-25T22:07:00.005+08:00

day out with darling(:
i had fun with darling yesterday!
we finally met up and hang out after her working hours and my last paper(math,the unexpected killer).
had so much to talk about, it was endless.but luckily for her and me, it is our last year in school so we will have more time to catch up.
ily darling.meet up more often alright?(:
darling has braces and hates it so she refuses to smile with mouth wide open.
in contrast i missed having braces on!hahah.darl thinks i am mad.

pictures with her amazing iphone 4.tempting me to get one tooooo!

first failed attempt.before getting it right.

anyway, a back dated picture of my friends and i during school's funfair last feb.

sadly very little pics cause we were busying trying to reap profits to recoup our revenue fully.hahah.

goodnight people.
ily baby.
xoxo

2011-02-04T22:16:00.009+08:00

update:haizum's mini party at carousel.
it was definitely nice to see her after a year(:

birthday girl(:

courtesy of carousel.their service was fast!

busy figuring out where the spoon for the choc fountain is.instead we were just supposed to dip.as usual!

her new polaroid(:
had fun.thanks zum and her mum in particular for inviting.
xoxo

ps. you my friend is an utter disappointment.

2011-01-04T22:20:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year All(:
ya the new greeting is like 4 days late but i was busy with work.
work is alright but standing for 7hrs a day is tiring and lucky thing the job was only for 8 days during christmas and new year period.
hope the new year will be smooth sailing for all.
anyw work was fun cause shanu was around but sadly we were in different department.
but there is something i have to say, always be a mindful customer.please.
school starts in a weeks time and i have limited time to prepare.
hols should be extended since the school closed like months/ weeks later after other jcs had.
have to read Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit for lit but i don't really understand a thing. hence can anyone help?
btw my chicken pox scars are still evident, i remembered clearly i didn't scratch so how come?

and work was fun cause i had Shanu to share the hard times with.

and the friends we made there(:

goodnight xoxo

ps you bailed out on me twice.disappointment.

2010-12-08T20:53:00.004+08:00

heloooooooo.
i finally met up with my darling after so many months of AWOL.hahah.
not that bad.anyw darl since we didn't get a picture together.
make do with this can?

ily.thanks for making time for me.goooood luck for your upcoming test♥

goodness grief i am like living in fear everyday cause i worry friday will come too soon with a piece of bad news:/
i am really scared. can friday not come?

2010-11-30T23:47:00.010+08:00

finally here comes my long awaited holiday.
but i have like only a month left. never mind a month is better than nothing(:
went over to my Charmaine's place yesterday to hang out and i watched she's the man.
don't say i am slow but i always procrastinated watching this movie though haizum recommended it way sometime back.
you know i don't really have a thing for macbook but i love the webcam.
it is motivating to cam-whore with it(:

♥

here are some of the many pics we took.

i have yet to watch half-blood prince and i will be watching deathly hallows tmrw.
how?
anyw till here.goodnight and sweet dreams loved ones.
xoxo

2010-11-12T21:11:00.004+08:00

today was supposedly the last day of pw.
my other classmate's oral presentation was today but because i had cp and was on 2 weeks break my teacher pushed back the date to next monday.
and on monday results will be released.
promoted/retained?
keeping my fingers crossed.
pictures taken on our last pw lesson, and yay as of this year project work is ceased and over(:

last but not least my cute and petite pw teacher who helped us a lot. and she was a joy to work with(:

awwww,getting rounder each day.
cause i am greedy.

2010-11-04T23:28:00.002+08:00

i am kind of bumped out staying at home.
but hey i enjoy every minute of it before i have to go back to school.
i am shuffling between pw (last component - oral presentation) and watching this.

Playful Kiss.
i was dead against watching this initially but after ugly betty i was really bored.
(:
i may be slow but for those who have not watch do so.

2010-10-29T00:25:00.002+08:00

i am really out of ideas for my i&r.
how can i critic my own project?this is annoying me.
however there is another issue that annoys me further.
not being able to scratch myself though i am itching all over.
yes, chicken pox and therefore i am confined to solitude.
and yes my first cp at age of 18. hahah.
geez sometime it is psychology huh?
the more someone say you can't do something they more you are dying to do so.
why oh why?
i can't take it anymore.

2010-10-23T22:54:00.002+08:00

finally completed pw. it was like a pw marathon.
meeting with mates from 11am - 630pm. and continued when reached home.
i feel like dying.no sleeping actually.
anyw i wanna see the clear blue sky again.haze please go away):
i'll be hoping for a heavy shower or that the burning stop soon.

just take a look at this.

goodnight.
xoxo

2010-10-19T18:32:00.004+08:00

exams are over.
yes i can rejoice but it'd be short term before results are announced.
but wait with pw and especially since written report is due next week the break i am having ain't practically a break): oh well.
whatever.
in mean time i should just be happy and enjoy.heheh.
♥♥♥

2010-09-17T22:57:00.005+08:00

gp and mt was today.
keeping my fingers crossed.who doesn't want to pass?
and please god let me pass gp.i wanna be promoted:/
i like watching peter chao on youtube.i never knew he was ultra hilarious.
and i juust happened to chance upon his video else, i would be missing all the fun.
chao outside mother fucker.
opps,just a quote from peter chao.hahah.

2010-09-12T17:50:00.003+08:00

geez it feels like hols just started but schools tmrw.
suck big time.
it is unfair why wasn't jc granted a 3 week YOG break?huh huh.
i wanna live a life of a princess.
grant me this wish?
toodles.

2010-09-09T22:46:00.006+08:00

my favourite econs teacher.
it was her last day on 26Aug. that's sad cause i was just liking econs.
she was funny and good but initially i kinda didn't like her. oh well.
promos are coming and i ought to have some motivation to study.
i should start.
so long love♥

2010-07-30T01:37:00.002+08:00

ya it is 1.30 and i am still awake.
just completed homeworks.lucky thing i had a much desired sleep just now.
school makes me lethargic everyday without fail.the long hours are a killer.
idk why but lately i am ultra moody); i get real pissed with 1 or 2 classmates of mine.
it really gets on my nerve you know.
but then again i ought not to be toooooo demanding.
btw i am more motivated to study now given the fact i finally passed econs and for math i have been paying attention it really helps ya know.
whatever it is don't give up without a fight(:
goodnight and have a good day people.
ily boy and thanks for the understanding♥♥♥

2010-07-25T23:35:00.008+08:00

fat's birthday celebration in advance yesterday with raman♥♥♥
to orchard and haizum's crib.watched Remember Me and the movie is effing great ok.
pictureeeeeeeeeees(:

Happy 17th Birthday Fatheen♥

she is enjoying the every minute of being tall.hehe.

blackberry♥

the movie mentioned,remember me.it will make you cry.trust me.
goodnight.i ought to catch up with my sleep.
ily boy♥

2010-07-09T00:09:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel the expectations i have to live up to is way beyond my means.
i feel super frustrated since i'm in a position of not knowing what to do.
life's not easy.and i am tired of it.
but there's no where i can run.
in the first place it was never my choice to be where i am.
what can i do?
i can only put a smile on my face and just live as the day past.

2010-07-06T19:53:00.003+08:00

ok this came late.
but i cant take it lying that Brazil is out!
it pissed me off.
though Brazil suck in the second half, there was this particular dutch player that exaggerates every fall causing Brazil players to get yellow card.
they even a red card tooooooooo.i dont care i am bias.
whatever,there is no changing that brazil is out.
omg school is back and PW is piling up since my group mates and i did nothing for the whole month.
tmr is mt oral,best wishes.
the topics are broad so pretty hard to narrow it down.
enough crapping,gtg to complete my homeworks.
i slack way to much.
love ya♥

2010-07-02T19:45:00.002+08:00

school have started but timetable seems slack cause of exams.
if only my classes starts at 10 i'd be great.
math paper,a bummer.i was stoning can't do much.
geez i promise i will do something about it.
mt oral is next week.after this no more mt please.
mummy booked tix to catch eclipse tmrw,i do hope it wont be disappointing(;
ily.toodles.

2010-06-25T23:31:00.003+08:00

hey babes.
rooting for Brazil all the way.
i am a soccer noob and need my precious darling to explain the rules.
i had no idea what off side was:/
though Brazil is in the next round already i want them to beat Portugal.
but it is still a draw.
goodnight.and enjoy the few day of hols.
i should start freaking out.

2010-06-24T23:29:00.010+08:00

back from sabah and i did enjoy myself.
thought it was more educational based as we had visits to the college and university there.
there is shopping center there too and they have roxy(:their mango was having 50% off.
heaven totally.
some pics to do more of the talking.
i had problem with the camera settings so some pics turned out blur or either it reflected light):

this is cool it is like a pavemant at a river.and cars can drive past.

first day visits was to the plantations at the mountains.

the pineapples there are sweet,majority.and they make a great food juice.

our first dinner was here.

this aint any rock.it was used to dried the dead skulls after de-attaching it from the body.even i was afraid to stand around it.

compilation of skulls:/

our second day,went sight seeing,morning market,mt kinabalu and seafood dinner.

i was freaking out all the way. it is dangling in mid air at a 15m-30m high. it was a canopy walk.and i had to walk on 4 of such bridge.i could have just passed out.

hot spring.

with my buddy and malay teacher.

the university there.

chocolate factory.and i decorated this heart(:

bye Sabah.i had a fun enjoyable time. the next time i go back i wanna go to the tanjung aru resort,till then.

2010-06-18T23:56:00.004+08:00

flying off tmrw morning.
excited, not really.i real am in a sucky mood this whole week.
the feelings of not wanting to go JC is coming back again.
anyway i wanna post picture of my fav girl,our outing on wed but my phone is giving me problems.geez.
goodnight and take care peeps >.-
i cant bring myself to hate you no matter what but when that day do come there'll be no turning back.i wont lick what i spit.
you pissed me off totally and yet my heart softens at the thought of you.
you dont deserve it.

2010-06-15T23:39:00.003+08:00

i just found out that school trip in jc is not as simple as worrying about what to pack and just leave.
sadly.a bummer.
school this thurs to rehearse our speech that would be done in sabah.
i thought it was just the packing i have to worry about.oh my i hate to have extra duty.not something expected and totally new.
i mean cambodia was a breeze.all about adapting.
and i suck at it.
sometimes i really wish it was our malay language department with ms noraini and fat,haikal going to sabah.
i wil feel more at ease and have tonnes of fun♥
i've been procrastinating a lot this whole week.a bad habit that's really hard to kick.even dar is the same.hahah.
meeting up with darling tmr(:i cant wait since it has been ages.
goodnight loved ones.

this is random but i want a short get away with dar to bangkok first.

2010-06-14T21:56:00.006+08:00

the moive is a thumbs up.i really love it.giving it 4stars.

haikal's POP last friday(:

more pictures are with fat.i hope we can hang out together again sometime next week before hols are over.
started with the revision.hope it is not all too late.
my cravings are a no no.all i do is satisfy my craving without keeping my weight in check.omg!
trying my very best.

2010-06-02T23:25:00.004+08:00

the holidays are finally here(:
but a pity there will be extra lessons the whole of next week.
suck big time!damn.
i need the drive to study.omg.does it come from within or does one have to attend adam khoo's camp all over again?
block test is like right after hols.so technically i'm not to be bored or say i got nothing to.
GSS is here and i wanna shop till i drop.wohooooo~
i'm in a dilemma.i dont know if i should go the sabah trip this 19 june.
the good things are that i'll be staying in shangri la hotel and visiting chocolate factory♥
and the sad thing is i will miss dar since it is 4 days and that means 4days less to study.
i shall draw lots to decide.
goodnight love.

2010-05-08T22:38:00.004+08:00

helloooooooooooooo(:
i went to watch a play,animal farm.initially i had no idea i signed up for it and regret though i still am,the play was nice.
lucky my mum gave me a brief summary if the show yesterday so i wasn't so lost.
mother's day is tmr and i'm going out with mummy(♥
i haven really thought of a gift.
i'm so bored and sad dar's at a camp):
i can't wait for him to come back.
hurry i don't wanna wait anymore):
i've been spending my free time watching cinderella sister.goodness grieve.
there's personal taste too with lee min ho but i prefer the cinderella sister more.
so much drama to watch but tooo little time.

i'm missing you badly.

2010-04-22T22:47:00.002+08:00

fridays.
i start school at 8.40.have 2 econs tutorials in a day.
one the first period, the other the last period.
and i end at 5.10.
hmmmm the breaks in school are making me indulge in a lot of unhealthy food.
i wanna stop but temptations are hard to resist.
getting fatter by day eh.heck!
loving you.goodnight♥

2010-04-21T22:04:00.002+08:00

hello peeps(:
i soooooooo wanna buy a new backpack for school.i've checked spin the bottle but nothing i liked there.
dickies are a no no.
and billabong,the outlet at raffles city is no more):they have a lot of variety to choose from as compared to the one at 313.
was walking around vivo last sat and i saw this rip curl bag that was super pretty but not really meant for school cause it is small.
i'm so getting that one.
today's a great day.i end at 2.10 and there's no homework.
wohoooooooooooo.
till here i wanna get as much sleep as possible.
and i passed 2.4.though the timing is not so good at least a pass will do me good.
if not i've get to school early in the morning for pe.
goodnight love.
love you loads♥

2010-04-13T22:18:00.002+08:00

dead beat.
i'm enticipating tmr cause i end at 2.10(:wohoooo.
gooooodnight♥
i've got to get back to my PW.

2010-04-11T22:09:00.008+08:00

hey ya(:
am supposed to be typing out my PW ideas but heck let me spare few minutes to blog.
geez,i'm dead beat.dying for long hours of sleep.
poly starting;orientation tmr,have fun people(:
met up with zum,haikal and fatheen yesterday.like finally.hahah!
went haji lane and bugis which meant shopping.
we were walking all around searching for food and we finally settle down in this pakistan restaurant.

pictures.

he's effing scary.i was dying to take picture with him but got frightened.

easier said than done.somehow i'm toying with the idea of dropping out.just toying buy it is impossible.i don't wanna have a tough life in the future.
let's just see where i can run to.

goodnight love.i've got to rush my pw.

2010-04-07T19:39:00.004+08:00

(:
skipped cca for this week.
somehow i must say i regretted joining guitar.i'm not a music person i suppose.
even mum advised me to not take up this cca but i thought i was up for the challenge.
big mistake!
it really is difficult to change my fingers to get the correct notes.
and to add on even though i practise i'll soon enough be discouraged.
i thought of still hanging in there to give a try but but.
well hoping to sell of my guitar before i shall officially quit the cca.
omg lets just see how things go.
persevere or give it up.
of all the subjects i took math and economics is big time killer.i need practise.
back in school i had eurica and dar to help me with math now i have to be independent and do my own practise.
damn damn damn!there's mass pe tmr.god.
see ya.

class picture taken at the bintan ferry terminal.
had level camp at bintan a week before march hols.and it was pathetic.
the first night it suddenly rained and the wind was so strong our tents which were the army tents collapsed so we were drenched.
the only thing that kept the camp going for 4days was company of friends.

PS i hope plans with the girls this sat won't have sudden changes or cancelling.
keeping my fingers cross.

2010-04-04T20:04:00.006+08:00

geez it has been a month ever since i came back to blog.
initially i was supposed to meet the girls yesterday at bugis but overslept after taking an afternoon nap.
i'm really sorry you guys):
plan failed horribly.we made plans again for next sat and i hope this time we really get to meet before zum starts her attachment and fatheen starts her poly.
i'm done wrecking my head to pieces to come up with ideas for project work.
topic this year was amalgamation and alternatives.i'm at my dying point.
omg help me please.
came up with an idea with g's help and there's still like 3 more to go.
thanks love♥
watched when in Rome on friday.hehehe and it is super funny((:
pe is super retarded and no fun at all it is like training and more training till my muscles cramp for days):
that bad.

looking back at the good old times.

somehow retarded i swear it was like back then in sec 2 or 3.thanks god there was photoshop.

look at my rabit teeth i had no idea it was erm.
i love my girls.

ilyGS♥
till then.

2010-02-28T22:11:00.004+08:00

happy birthday darling♥

hellooooooooooooooooooooo(:
so had my cvd funfair yesterday and it was super tiring.
it turned out to be fun bonding time with my classmates.amazingly i bumped into Catherine and some primary school mates.
geeez my time management is real bad.i'd better do something fast.
i was super excited to watch dear john yesterday but but the funfair.
damn!
for now make do with no pictures as i'm kindda not having a life yet.
like today i spent the day home rushing through homeworks.4 to be precise.
i'm doing something about it.
i wonder if i can juggle between studies to make it to year 2 and at the same time have fun.
chelles we will meet up sometime i promise.
ily precious.thanks for everything♥

2010-02-22T22:15:00.003+08:00

i'm like in need of a planner super badly.
i'm scribbling all the homework and reminders on a piece of paper.
i wanna one thats pretty and of a reasonable price.i really hope to get one soon.
ok so i'm like going to Bintan for level camp.
i'm desperately searching for the rubber shoes we bought at Kahang but i think i've threw it away.
geez this is like so important as i'll be walking at mangrove swamps to plant the mangrove.
yikes it is muddy):can someone like spare me one?
haha you know how carefree one can be during pe? we can like sit and chat on the benches.
but sadly now i've to run at the track.
geez!
till then.
ily precious♥

2010-02-21T23:30:00.003+08:00

hey ya(:
lately there ain't much to blog about.my life's a bore.
lessons have like officially started for 3 days and homeworks have started to pile.
i have 7 itself for the week):
project work have yet to officially start and life is already somewhat hectic.
and and economics is giving me headache.i have hard time understanding what ppc shit.
ya now the only thing i'm capable of doing is to complain.
oh well.
btw this may sound funny but i listed guitar as one of my choices for cca.ahaha(:
i was like searching for an indoor cca and since there's guitar why not just sign up.
but i've yet to know my official cca.
see ya.goodnight love♥
and take it from me enjoy and make the best of your holiday while you still can(:

2010-02-10T18:15:00.004+08:00

being in pain is super miserable.
and so i hate cramps.
ok lately my post hardly sounds vibrant.and that's sad.
but i can't help it that's how i really feel.
2 weeks is passing and lessons have yet to start so i've to take my chance to still enjoy while i can.
oh well i just feel super miserable.a little empty.
so much for wanting to adjust.i guess it wasn't as easy as i thought it'd.
new year holidays are coming.something to look forward to.
a longer weekend break(((;wohoo.
till then love.

ily precious♥
ps:i saw the smiley faces you added.haha!

2010-02-07T18:53:00.005+08:00

sunday it is(:
i want it to stay for like ever.
went to body worlds on thursday for class excursion.
no offence but science centre?class excursion?
one thing,at least body world was impressive ya(:
i'm upset knowing i'm plain selfish but i can't help it.
i really can't.
i suppose i got too reliant.what a bad thing.
i'm sorry but i'll adjust.
ily precious.(:(:
bye loveeeeeeeeeeeee♥it's been some time.

ps:i want freshly baked cookies and brownies(;

2010-02-02T19:58:00.002+08:00

day 4:i'm dead beat and still hate it there.
can't believe i walked around the neighbourhood under the scorching sun.
oh why.
the orientation is a week and thats extremely long.i'm just plain looking forward to weekend.
and hope time does not pass.
haha,pimple on the nose thats real horrible.it makes it super obvious.
damn!
i'm goona turn in now.
night love♥

the thought of you makes me cry,i so wanna spend time with you like before school started.
why can't i adapt?

2010-01-31T23:03:00.010+08:00

hey ya(:
had fun and nice chit chat day with the girls at sentosa.
it was a pity haikal can't come along.i was hoping to meet up with him.
oh well as much as i wanna think positively and feel better.
things ain't looking bright ya and this week suck especiall after thursday.
i still hate the fact school started like immediately after the posting.
and sometimes when i sit in the school hall i'll be day dreaming thinking about what i'd be doing at home now.
i'm just so used to waking up at 11,watching tv programmes,blasting mtv and occupying my time with precious that i really feel it is too super sudden to be in school.
btw i'm somewhat interested to go to the airshow this upcoming week.hehe.

look at the faces blowing the ballon(;haha.

i've said this and yeah let time heal the wound.but for now i feel like shit.
i'm dead beat esp when i have to get up early tmr.
goodnight.
and ily precious(:

i really hate all this);and it makes me wanna cry real bad.

2010-01-30T16:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY first love♥
can't wait to meet up with you and fat tomorrow(:yay!
and sorry dear i can't meet you up to buy the present today.not that i don't want to but.
hmmm i'm feeling better definitely.
hopefully i can continue looking on the brighter side always.
and dar you still owe me a nice pic together.
please do put the pic i placed in your wallet.
and and i can't wait for darl's holidays,i have yet to see you for a long time.
love you.toodles.

2010-01-28T22:37:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY G♥
it is a dampening thing that school started today.i'd really love to celebrate your birthday with ya.thanks for the company home though(:
bohoooooooooo);
school started like today with orientation and i don't like it.
i find it super super sudden.received the results yesterday and today i'm in school.
geez but i guess i need time to get use to a new environment and all.
you know i do hate having to start from scratch,making new friends and learning how to adapt.
especially learning how to adapt i seem to suck at it.
let's just self console nur,2 years get it over and done with.
i do hope things will get better over time.
goodnight.

i hate sudden changes.i really do. i need time. i certainly am to toooooo use to spending so much time with you that i feel weird having to be on my own.
damn!i wanna talk on the phone with you while watching the same tv programme);
i wanna burst out in tears.

2010-01-26T23:23:00.003+08:00

hello hello.
just when i thought i could rejoice over the fact my braces off.
comes a pain in the ass retainers.well i must say this is the price to pay to have nice set of teeth.
now i have troubles pronouncing my S and there's like a lot of saliva in my mouth.
geeeeeeeeeeeeez.
anyway peeps best of luck in getting into your desired course and school(:
i'm excited to go shopping. YAY(:like after so long.
night.

2010-01-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

hmmmmmm.
boys like girls concert is this thursday and backstreetboys is on the 28Feb.
geeeez,if i were to decide i'd prefer to be at the backstreetboys concert.
but will have to see and consider.
damn can i like win tickets to go(;
and obsession for jb ain't going sometime soon.
basically for now i'm counting down with love to 28jan.
i'm excited precious(;haha.
goodnight loved ones♥

2010-01-23T22:39:00.008+08:00

i want fried mars bar like now!
i was watching music videos and came across Justin Bieber.
damn this little boy,i find him impressive and i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee him♥
his cute but too young.he's one lucky boy(;
bye love.

2010-01-21T14:08:00.003+08:00

hey ya.
so gooooooooooooooodbye braces,hello teeth.
like finally.but somehow it feels weird without the braces(;
i never regretted a day staying at home and not finding job.though the thought of money for shopping drives me nuts,i'm more than happy to be slacking my ass off.
geez,birthdays are coming up next week and i must start wrecking my head for gifts.
first love i can't wait for sentosa with you and fat.
erm so we'll know where we are posted to on 27jan huh?damn i wouldn't be too excited as it's scary.
watching glee now see ya love.

2010-01-17T23:07:00.005+08:00

helloooooooooooooooo.
so have submitted the choices.as to where i'll go i leave it to fate ya.
though it is pretty nice to stay at home i'm just missing out on fun i had in class with eurica,michelles and those whom i sit nearby with.
esp when eurica argues with mrs chan,i can't never get enough of it(;haha.
i miss gossiping during lessons.darn,it was and still is my favourite.
i miss walking to school with haikal.
i miss finding fatheen to talk to during recess time and after school.
i miss cikgu's malay lesson though we're busy joking half the time instead of really doing our work.
i miss going home with dar.
geez i must really admit if i can freeze time i'd just love to stay in secondary school.
but life have to move on yeah?
so some old pics here.

soooooooory love if we both look horrible.it was kindda the best.haha!
but thanks love for making me adapt to school last year.you really helped♥

so as much as i can't go back in time.i really have to say i got no regrets and enjoyed last year alot.
hmmmmm now that i'm done with ugly betty i'm moving over to gossip girls.
i would really love to watch as many dramas as i could before school starts.
so long love.

2010-01-13T23:48:00.004+08:00

hey ya.
feeling better i can say.mum and i have came to an agreement(:
about a day and a half left to decide so i'd better fill up those 12 choices wisely.
thanks love for today.
i'm kindda getting a little bored with the routine lifestyle of mine.
i'd loveeeeeeeeeee a shopping spree soon.YAY(:
so long love.

and i'm tired of having to put with your mood swings.it is unpredictable.
i'm tired.

2010-01-13T00:30:00.006+08:00

goodness feeling like crap ain't even the right description.
plain torn apart going with my mum's choice,jc or poly.
but seriously jc?i can only get those that are in the extreme corner of singapore.
a joke real joke.
god to be frank i want to go no where and enjoy life as it is but damn that's just short term plan.
geeeeez torn apart and seriously 4 days to decide?
i'm already super fickle minded and 4 days,not much help aites!
screw everything.and take me away will you?
cause i really can't do this.
FUCK IT.like seriously FUCK IT!

2010-01-08T15:41:00.004+08:00

hello hello.
went bowling,played arcade and watched the morgans yesterday.
thanks for the fun dar and it was nice to play before monday.
at least that helped me to keep my mind of,damn!
but get this dar i want a re-matched.
so poly open house tomorrow,idk whats the plans here girls and also i just don't feel like stepping into poly after poly.
it doesn't help me get rid of the butterflies in my stomach.
gosh when can i get over this.
hmmm darling's moving to tampines and it is sooo far from my place):
darling can you reconsider?and promise me we will meet up soon.
i miss you.
toddles love.

2010-01-05T14:45:00.003+08:00

hey ya.
now thats school started i'm glad to know i'm not missing it the littlest bit.
i've kindda waited for this moment.
to feel what it is like to be at home watching videos and drama when there's school.
i can say i've dreamt of this moment way back.
damn the weather is a killer.the sun is scorching hot making me so dead lazy to get out.
and i cant just stop thinking o level results are next week.
it is making me have butterflies in my stomach and i soooo cant take it.
i just feel like hiding somewhere.
to be frank i'm kidda bored of studying but wanting to lead a simple life in singapore is never goona happen.
it is competitive here if i dont strive i can get no where.
so i have to screw my idea of leading a simple,slow paced life.
see ya love(:getting back to watching UB.

2010-01-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

gosh time really flies.
we've said goodbye to 2009 and celebrated the arrival of 2010.
i wonder what lies ahead for me.
whoa.i'm bored and dar's snoring away.

2009-12-30T23:49:00.008+08:00

cycling with sweethearts today.
we cycled further down this time but didn't reach changi due to time constrain and syirah was afraid.
i would have to agree.geez who wouldn't be afraid of the narrow and 'ulu' path.
it was so narrow that i hurt myself and tore a banner.right clumsy me as always.
erm thinking about it.next year is just a day's away.
and it scares me for one reason.
the fact o level results will around the corner in a blink of an eye.
believe it or not it is to an extent i have nightmares.
oh well i'm going back to watching ugly betty.
i'm not promoting but i really love this drama.
after every episode values of life are thought and this leaves me going to bed feeling rather touched each time(:
soooooo long love.

2009-12-29T23:32:00.018+08:00

hey you.
over at haizum's crib to chill and bake.
fun,fun,fun and more fun(:
before baking we watched this movie,Syurga Cinta.
initially i was adamant about it but turns out to be nice.thumbs up man.
wohooo.i could say i had the best time there with first love and sweetheart.
it was great time spent before first love goes back to school next monday.
sooo baking of cornflakes turned ot fine besides being caught for eating while doing the job.
and supper was mac and cheese♥thanks love.
goodnight.i'm dead sleepy but am so hung up with ugly betty.

the marshmallow dipped in chocolate that didn't look like one but at least still edible.hehe(;

girl rockband.

the cornflakes we baked.
and it spelled HIDA.if you can actually see the formation of letters.
if cant, pardon me since it was my first attempt.

2009-12-27T02:20:00.006+08:00

morning love.
hmmm,watching ugly betty season 3 now.i'm pretty slow huh.
but damn once i start there's no turning back.
well so now i'm still rotting away at home.
planning to find job next year instead when most have gone back to school.
maybe then will i get the opportunity.
so singapore idol grand finale is hours away.pretty exciting huh though i'm not an idol fan.
i'm just wondering who will take the title.
and i cant help but to wonder how the kids are doing back in Cambodia.
i know it has been 3 weeks but still i find it hard to let go.

out with chelles on 22/12♥♥

2009-12-21T23:14:00.008+08:00

met up with first love and sweetheart today♥
cycling at ecp.wanted to cycle all the way to changi but it was getting dark and a guy adviced us to turn back as it was really dark further down.
how thoughtful(:
i had lots of fun and thanks loved ones.we should spend time together often.
and lately i'm missing Cambodia even more.
i sooooo wanna go back.
alright goodnight love.

2009-12-16T23:14:00.005+08:00

HAHA.i'm too muddle-headed and it can't be compared to anything.
i got no comments about it.
oh well finally got my lazy ass up and went for 2 interviews.
one at robinsons yesterday with fatheen and siti and one at kovan today.
both said if short listed,the latest they'll call is next week.
hmmm i wonder if they will get back to me.
i'll be keeping my fingers crossed for now.
oh ya,caught newmoon last week. i would say it is okayyy but agree that twilight was a lot better.i so can't get over Jacob's body♥
and i'm craving for KOI bubble tea.
till then my love.

i still think of it occasionally.and i miss you little boy.

2009-12-10T22:49:00.003+08:00

watched twilight today in attempt to save myself from extreme boredom.
i can say it relieved my infatuation moments for Edward.
i'm dying to watch newmoon but most said that the show was pretty boring and that twilight is better.i shall see it for myself before giving any comments.
hmmm.i really have to move my lazy ass to go for job interviews.
i was initially hoping jobs could come knocking at my door but i've to be realistic.
i shall start tomorrow.and i shall see if i keep my promise.
but somehow i doubt my own words.
i wanna see stars,like you know all over,but it is a rare sight in Singapore.

i'm happy as it is(:

2009-12-09T23:32:00.003+08:00

couples retreat was f-ing hilarious.
i was bursting out in laughter like nobody's business till haikal complained i was a little too loud.
but it ain't much of a problem as we got the front seats.
and we made that place like home.
oh god i'm enjoying every moment of this.
funny how haikal came up with the idea of going to Langkawi after his o levels next year.fatheen and i am up for the idea though(:
i still can't get the movie out of my mind.damn i'd rate it 5/5.
and have ticked my checklist of eating mac.hmmm wonder whats next.
damn!!fatheen i'm never gonna fulfill my promise am i?

♥♥♥♥

i'm still trying.

2009-12-08T23:40:00.004+08:00

finally done with the uploading of pics.
spent a total of 5 hours on the comp itself.
the only thing i'm capable of doing while at home is to binge.god!
i'm having tonnes and tonnes of cravings to satisfy.
anyway.i'm kindda having mixed feelings about finding job.damn i'm indecisive.
but i'm still gonna give it a shot for tmr's interview.
excited though to meet up with haikal.

Ik Hur
i love him the most♥
he was the best company i had back there at the project side.

2009-12-07T22:48:00.006+08:00

did our post expenditure programme today and dropped by east coast with the girls.

managed to satisfy my cravings for KFC.next on the checklist will be mcSpciy.

i can't belive me and fatheen is so forgetful and clumsy.

i was on my way back with huda and siti in the bus when i realised my phone was with her.

so we ended up together till 9.crapping and lazying around.it was a blessing in disguise(:

and why does it seem that people are never appreciative of what they have?take me for instance.

awww.when i never had this particular something,i was dying for it but now that i have it i can't wait to let it go.why the contradiction?

2009-12-06T17:31:00.030+08:00

BACK FROM CAMBODIA(:

seriously the trip there was an enjoyable and fruitful one.

glad there was siti fatheen huda and cherly to share the happy sad and tiring moments.

though we did have our fair share of misunderstanding,glad we can still bridge the gap fatheen.

oh well as usual i'll let the pictures do the talking.but won't be uploading all as it'd take forever.

now that i'm back,main focus is to find a job.had the idea of recuperating at home for 2 weeks at first but cash flow is depleting by the day.

any recommendation people?

i regretted not taking a ride on this.

she's the best.and i love her♥

Mr Goh told us that beneath this are treasures(;

SWENSONS.I was darn right heads over hills in love while indulging in the ice cream.

The traditional games we played there kindda relived childhood memories and one will always be a child at heart right?

OUR INTERNATIONAL BUFFET NIGHT(:

Our last day.went karaoke,ate swensons and shopping.

our final pics at the airport.

2009-11-17T13:13:00.015+08:00

first things first.thanks raman(:for the new layout months back.
it feels like years since i last blog.oh well!
funny how it starts to feel awkward.i'm kindda out of words actually.so i'll let the pictures do the 'talking'.

graduation day,16/10/09(also eurica's birthday)

15/10/09(eurica's advanced birthday celebration(:)

04/09/09(break-fast)

01/08/09(FATHEEN's birthday CELEBRATION(:)

okay,i'm done for now.gonna catch my drama serial.
till then love(:

Here for you .

2009-04-09T02:37:00.010+08:00

This post is for you Ida.
you want the pic i upload it for you((:
Its my sweet seventeen birthday .

SURPRISE SURPRISE !!!

2009-04-09T01:32:00.014+08:00

Saw your blog.So boring...
Read it saying u wanna change ur blogskin so i help.
Hope you like it(:

Btw looking through my folder i found our very old pic.
Bring back some memories.
here some :

Posted by : Haizum <3

2009-01-25T16:28:00.003+08:00

goodness why am i such a sucker when it comes to finding a blogskin ?
i've been missing lots of opportunities to meet up with raman.
full of hopes to meet her this saturday to celebrate her birthday. i swear there's plenty of catching up to do.
oh boy i really miss her.
only now did i realised i was super depended on both her and darl.
making me feel pretty lonely deep down.
anyway i'm proud with darl's o level results.
it was really excruciating back there in the hall.
i don't hope to be crying my eyes out when i receive my cert.

its not easy fitting in):

2008-12-24T15:41:00.003+08:00

ok so the end of december and the new year is coming really soon.
and i'm up to nothing actually. in particular meaning no job thats all.
other than that thank god the holidays have been awesome though slightly boring on somedays.
to actually think about it i'm going to sec 5 without bestie and darl, they have been the greatest i swear to put up with my constant bitch whines and temper.
i dont know how easy or difficult it will be.
but bestie i do hope you'll get your nursing course. allthebest(: i hope to be first to hear from you.
caught twilight last sat and i'm in love with the vampire.madly in love♥
darl's super irritated by that.
anyway merry Christmas people.

2008-11-03T13:22:00.013+08:00

working at roadshow events can be exhilarating,you know making new friends and the experience gained, but super tiring due to the long hours of standing.
but at least i'm doing something i like(:
and i cant thank darl and raman enough for coming down to see me.
btw raman you caught me off guard totally!
now i've to find another job all over again. DAMN!

24/10

this was taken way back during the national day. the same day i feel in love with the black knights. i was taken a back by the stunts they did with the jets♥

love,the ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person.

James Morrison - You Make It Real

2008-10-22T22:45:00.016+08:00

purple.and cause i'm greatly happy, super happy about many many stuffs.
no more countdown, school's over. anyway darl keep going.i'm waiting for our date to bullshit, crap and laugh till my tears just rolled down and make up for the time we lost cause of my ego.
best of luck.i know you can.
was plain crapping like hell with fatheen and hykel the whole day.

pictures taken on graduation day.

i wont despise you but i'm angry. totally pissed.

2008-10-21T22:29:00.003+08:00

i never missed blogging this much.
counting down, 2 days to the big break. hmmm might not be technically big but still the break i've been looking forward to since the last post.
oh boy. secrets.
i never thought it can cause anything in the world to be fragile.anything. and how i wished i never knew. its troubling me like hell.
how can i look at you in the same way again ?
of all people never once it occurred to me you'd do the same. you the one with a working brain.
OH GOD! just when i thought i got rid of the burdens now come along what seemed like not my problem but i care, i care so much cause you're a friend.
i'm thinking shopping should and would be the best remedy now.
but i need cash. well made some jobs enquiries here and there.
slightly choosy though.

2008-06-10T00:29:00.004+08:00

life's occupied with tuition and hols homework right now.
its as good as saying i've got no life for this 2 weeks.
revision, revision and ,more revision.
geez i suppose i'll be happy after N'level is over. and when is that ?
i freaking don't want to blog right now but i really needed to just take time off.
and catch some movies along the way too.
it just feels like i'm so way out of my own league.
what happened just now totally stink.
i really hate it when i hurt those i love most in just a moment of folly.
zummy and fatheen had planned a nice breakfast at east coast.
but i hate waking up early. this will be an exception cause i get to hang out with the girls(:
CHAO, gonna watch Made Of Honour.

2008-05-22T20:57:00.004+08:00

the American Idol results are keeping me feeling super impatient.
even though yahoo has already posted it.
i'm keeping myself in suspension and for what, idk.
i'm hoping David Cook wins(: but David A has a lot of teenage female fans.
woooo, sexy.
i wanna get a Jodi Picoult book tittled change of heart but i find it a waste. i'll be chucking the book aside after reading.
unless i manage to convince mummy to get the book for me.
hmmm that seem like a great alternative.
going out with mummy tomorrow(: weeee~

2008-05-21T19:42:00.005+08:00

oh goodness its summer already!
damn it still feels like its still somewhere around march.
time never wait for any definitely huh.
i've planned a 'THINGS TO DO THIS SUMMER' list and wahidah you'd better clear the list with your determination aite. don't just talk.
HAHA(:
my inspiration supposedly.
OH ZUMMY when can we ever go out ? its been months ok.
and you you FATHEEN brace yourself lady. why does it seem so hard to get you to talk to me.
i just can't help but to feel bad at the state you're going through now. its just so hard for us to get together this days, one's busy the other stressed up.
anyway my tomorrow is beloved daddy's birthday but we'll be having the cut cake celebration today since its his off day.
celebration will be in collaboration with father's day i suppose.
WOOOOOOOO♥

i suppose things can never be the same again.

2008-05-18T19:23:00.004+08:00

wooo. i've not been blogging but its not as if i'm studying real hard or so.
mid year, i passed my subjects but most of which are borderline passes even english. hmmm.
school holiday is something i look forward to but not as much this year. still i enjoy the idea of not having to wake up early.
but study is something that i need to prioritise.
i'd better start grooming myself and have the right attitude.
what is friendship that money can't buy nor other things can replace.
i'm taking time out to think each day but i still can't derive on anything.
fcuking pathetic is all i can say.
and babe is going through some rough patches in her life and i do hope to spend sometime talking to her and see what i can do.
i just hope she hangs in there. be brave lady(:

2008-05-09T19:29:00.003+08:00

weets~ exams woes are over for now so now i finally got my arse on the computer chair.
as usual physics and goeg are a total killer as i did not make the extra effort to study that much. the next five days are somewhat of a 5 day mini break.
and and i'm gonna fill my days with watching movies and dramas and hang out with girlfriends too. i so wanna watch korean dramas badly but most of it are with no subtitles. damn!
watched harold and kumar at zum's house yesterday. fucking hilarious.
Harold has this cute personality, he is so cautious about everything and have the innocent look.

2008-04-17T18:18:00.006+08:00

SWEEEEEEET! tmr school's ending early. sounds great huh but have to go to the sch anniversary ceremony in the afternoon. and i'll have to be extra careful with my ticket, it looks like in a pretty bad condition already.
the conference hall is near by lau pa sat and it will be too good a deal to miss the food there(:
so yay, finally there will be time to spend with buckett and gfs.
shahirah let me see the video of Patrick Jumpen and check out the cool dance move,jumpstyle.

Patrick Jumpen - The Secret

here's a video of the jonas brothers since i'm at it. i long for them to have a concert here.
NICK's only 15 or 16,the youngest and i thought he was the oldest.
his curls are super cute♥

Jonas Brothers - When You Look Me In The Eyes

2008-04-15T17:44:00.003+08:00

take time to realize.
the song have been repeatedly playing on my mind.
wooooo~ changed my skin. i did not really like the previous one except for the pic with the horse and..
life's mundane. studying studying, at home and no outings. but i'm bearing with it well(:
beckett is isolated and i miss her though we see each other everyday. i really cant wait for the days exams will be over but of course with me being fully prepared.
WOHOOOO! steeping down in a weeks time. its like a dream come true. but after stepping down i'm sure me and darl won't have the time to talk or even be 'friends' and i'll miss my squad mates too aite.
ANNNNND CLICK FIVE is having a concert this JUNE and and i'm freaking excited and really want to go!!

Colbie Caillat - Realize

2008-04-12T21:43:00.007+08:00

the second pic in which the girl is holding onto the horse is pretty classic with the sun shine.
and i love it(:

CIP on thursday and i did not expect to have much fun. and reminisced with our childhood too,playing at the playground. but sadly we've overgrown the playground.
mum and dad are listening to some 80s song and it just gets me how rock the beat is. she's always telling me to detach myself from mtv and now they are loving it.
HAHA! at least my mtv won't be cancelled now that they have this 8os half an hour programme. YIPPEE its loved baby.
i'm having the sudden urge to watch step up. but i cant borrow any cds around my neighbourhood as mum had a dispute with the (from what i think is a) unreasonable lady.

the heart never lies.

2008-04-08T18:26:00.011+08:00

somehow i can see my eyesight is deteriorating but i just had check up last week. and and i've been eating well and using my specs when needed. whooooo~
i don't want to be permanently using my specs.
it will suck!
today's malay lesson rock my socks! we had lesson at the canteen and had to describe the surrounding atmosphere. its nice ya know studying in new environment, somehow engaged me.
daily motivation. thats what i need to encourage myself. have to do well for mid year(: so i can shop till i drop after exams. my mind have wondered far away i know.

JONAS BROs ARE ADORABLY CUTE(:

2008-04-05T15:35:00.008+08:00

road run. the sun was scorching hot.
and i lost my mp3. sad sad sad! i gave it to beckett and when she returned it back, i completely had no idea. its still of value and in a good condition not considering the minor scratches. and i hardly leave the house without it. so i'm in a mini crisis. its not as worthy as an i-touch but still. the whole idea of me being sad is to cope the days ahead without it. i have to get myself occupied and hopefully forget it as days pass. i'm just so tactless and clumsy in which is a bloody character or habit ?. idk. like losing my ez card twice ? in short, devastated.
a painful/heartbreaking lesson learnt.
things between darl and me are getting on fine and its a great feeling that i miss. though it's somewhat not the same as before,
we'll just take a step one by one.
maths tuition is still on today. tired! mum was upset with the fact i got 43 for maths and said she'll stop tuition if there's no marked progress.
have to help myself and make the enthusiastic effort.

what darn luck!

2008-03-21T22:31:00.007+08:00

went school with puffy eyes yesterday and i'm sure its due to lack of sleep. i need some catching up with my beauty sleep.
WEEEEE~ motivation is back and so is everything else. i don't know but the small problem was made into a huge one till i can get super emotional. i suppose i just love the friendship we had before and sharing each other's company ? sad huh ? you don't even seem bothered.
today was super boring but i manged to do maths(: i can't give up for sure ..
YAY(: you know how i,myself, is glad i'm back to the crappy me. i've just been so so emo. ewww.
went sing post with gfs yesterday. and it was really fun though just a short one.

2008-03-19T23:35:00.004+08:00

finally, done with the malay oral stuff. PHEEEEEW!
out to sub court today. a good learning experience i can say but when it came to the actual hearing we went in, kind of bored cause we came in half way through so was lost completely.
peeps do recommend me of any nice blog skins you come across alright ? i'm lousy in this and bloody picky too.
beckett you just make me smile in the slightest shit you say. my great fortune to befriend you huh ? and yours too aite(;
you just say things and that i take things too hard but do you even bother. i felt being treated like dirt alright now that you have a gold bar. your preety luck. so you telling me its all over ? you don't even bother about this friendship anymore right ? fine. trust me to have been taking things super hard but you.

2008-03-18T20:52:00.005+08:00

its still the same. things ain't getting any better. trouble with geog teacher. and whatever, i don't wanna know anymore. life's not only a disaster but a total dumpster too.
PLEASE RETURN MY SMILES god. or maybe it lies within me somewhere.

2008-03-17T22:02:00.005+08:00

@!#$%^&*=+/~!
i feel like screaming every vulgarity i know but ass its not of any help. fucking screwed my malay paper again! LIKE WTF. so the A2 i've been getting all this years were piece of shit.
I HATE MALAY LESSONS! I HATE MALAY LESSONS ! it can never be the same again.darn fuck.
where the fuck does the damn problem lies ?
i'm making life miserable for myself by taking things too hard. i'm goona have to learn to let go. and really mean let go. i can really hate school but it is best place that keep me all smiles with my girlfriends. i don't want the feeling of being so tied up anymore. i wanna be the happy go lucky me again. the crappy me is lost day by day. i want it to find its way back.
THANKS A MILLION for being the greatest friend you can ever be. glad to know you're happy(:
and with that i give up.
lend me a shoulder to cry on.

2008-03-15T23:03:00.013+08:00

STEP UP 2 is LOVED♥

the only disappointment was that channing tatum was not the main actor. and i know its not for me to decide.
out with chelles yesterday. it was nice getting to know more of her. we catched step up 2 and i am head over the heels in love with it. the dance move was awesome, without having to actually mention it.
it'd be great if i can befriend a guy like MOOSE(: he have great sense of humour and cool moves too. chelles i'll call you out for shopping someday again ok ?
SUPERNATURAL aside for now. i'm hooked to korean dramas and smallville.
I MISS BECKETT and GIRLFRIENDS.
annnd i've not touched my malay homework in which i'll have rush the super duper last minute.
goodnight loves.

2008-03-10T19:21:00.007+08:00

weeeeeeee~
school's out for a week. a week, it will pass by real fast for sure. so i hope have loads of fun and for studies i don't know. it is stressful you know how much i wanna study but after opening the book for 10 mins, i fall asleep. i have to help myself somehow. MUST FIND STRATEGY!
it wont harm if i can get free tickets to Maroon 5 concert. it will be great! HAHA(:
i've yet to watch supernatural season 2. i don't know whats wrong with the dvd player. i'll have to get dad to check it and hopes to finish the season by this week.
SWEEEEEET♥ I'M HAPPY FOR MISS BECKETT. i hope for her to be happy.
ok even beckett thinks i'm desperate to go out and indeed i am. i'm hunting for people. sadly fatheen's at pulau ubin and for 5 days.
anyway some picture's taken on last day of term 1.

2008-03-05T23:03:00.003+08:00

ADD ME UP ON MYSPACE PEOPLE!
http://www.myspace.com/wahidahwahab
OH GREAT! i got punk-ed by the all time prankster Rafi and Rahmatdan. damn them! being at home all bored they both decided to play a prank on me and haizum and few others. SHIT them. i feel like a complete fool. HAHA(:
you both wait and see tomorrow.
i really am so so in to the SHOPPING and HANG OUT mood. i'm gonna start hunting for dates.
be my date someone. HAHA!

2008-03-04T22:25:00.004+08:00

JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE is so HOT!
he's not my obession though.
FAILED maths by 3 marks. but i told myself not to be disheartened. i'll work something out somehow. so gauging from common test results i'll know how hard i've got to work and i really have to. but still i'm dying to go on a shopping spree.
I WANNA DO SOME SHOPPING(: and step up 2 is coming out soon. how sweet.even if beckett can't go with me i'll watch the movie myself. anyway i've straightened my thoughts and i think i don't have to fret too much, i'll just let nature take its own course. but i'm afraid the feeling of hate will start to develop. AHHHHHHHH! i don't want to scream help me again!
i've got only one picture from last week's outting, a compilation of some pictures as beckett sister deleted the pictures by accident.
sweet dreams my love.

2008-02-28T22:12:00.007+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16 DARL(:
this week stinks and i mean it.
I NEED MOTIVATION. in which is suppose to come from myself. i only want A1 for maths, 3 or least 4 points for N-level but crap i'm not making the effort. i'm just talking and not wanting move my damn chair. there's cca tomorrow for us seniors only which will suck big time and camp's this weekend. it is so not fair. i badly wanted to go out tomorrow not only to celebrate darl's birthday but spend the leap year outside. OK i don't know but the leap seem to be something super exciting for me and NO its not my birthday. jakun i suppose ?
FAILED malay class test which is darn demoralizing alright. how HOW the fuck am i suppose to get an A1 ? goodness i think i'm in need of some grooming here.

HELP ME! i badly need some HELP!

a prefect description of how i'm feeling, thinking and being.

you are making me suffer in silence somehow.

2008-02-27T21:25:00.003+08:00

i'm hungry. DAMN i don't want to eat at this hour. maths paper suck big time. why can't i ever apply what i learn ? i wish and long to drop maths in some way but HELL NO there's no such thing. geog paper tomorrow another darn thing. she's been edgy lately, fucking irritating faggot. i want to go for a short break somewhere at new zealand or phuket.
it's impossible i know.
OH DARLING! i don't know either. i definitely want this friendship to be salvage. i'm not that petty to be angry about you not spending time with me but it is indeed upsetting. i don't want your apologies, one is greatly enough. but ya you can't deny i'm like a souvenir in your cupboard that's getting dusty due to lack of your concern or care ? and it made me realise how i still can't accept the whole damn thing. i'm sorry too but i guess i just need to be given time and i don't know how long. but accepting is a definite NO! leave things as it is at the moment ?

2008-02-23T23:36:00.005+08:00

OUT with beckett.
it was great like all times but sadly we missed the movie. it was damn crowded and the leap year movie is out. ( yes i'm slow) we wanted to catch the movie but the slot was somewhere between midnight, if only i could stay out that late ? it is infuriating. i really looked forward to watch ps i love you and jumper but apparently that goody beckett watched jumper online just yesterday. headed down Clarke quay to have dinner. and met up with fatheen at far east. that lady came late so she missed the chance to cut her hair again. HAHA! my leg hurts using the new pumps. blisters every where. i've bought the billabong bag. YAY! pictures are with the sassy lady, so i'll have to wait.
sleep tight peeps.

2008-02-22T23:24:00.005+08:00

i'm really sleepy but dying to blog. met up with fatheen at 8, she wanted to get a hair cut but sadly the shop closed even before 9. so we sat down, chatted and crap. it was really great since i was feeling edgy. we even saw darl at toa payoh.
malay compo was SHIT! i created some lame story and we did not have any choice, there was only one question.
i've decided to enlarge my font since zum and fatheen compliment my wordings are too small.
i don't know but is friend someone who comes and go in your life but your girlfriend stays forever ? seriously i've never been any more pissed after you started the relationship. i felt my understanding was really taken for granted. i've also wanted you to have your own breathing space but a day, few minutes together, is it hard ? i'm just disappointed and hurt. you just don't feel that we're distanced cause you're so occupied right now. sometimes i long to go back home with you but seeing you both, i back off.
IT FEELS SO FUCKED UP!
if i'm a bitch friend of yours, i'm SORRY.anyway i've cool it, just ranting. common test is just next week and so is the camp. zum and me we'll be going out tomorrow. i'm excited(:
goodnight my loves.

2008-02-21T21:17:00.006+08:00

today's compo, I wrote about not realising how important the people around you are till they are gone. it's just amazingly true. skip this alright, its gonna get emotional.
MALAY compo tomorrow, SHIT! i don't know how or what to revise. A confirm dead end.
i would love to go shopping now and indulge myself in some great treats. smelly girl's birthday is approaching. we had it planned out already. going out this leap year and watch the leap year movie. saw the sypnosis and it looks really romantic so I decided to check it out.

2008-02-18T23:04:00.004+08:00

the rose withers away andi'm left in agony.
had a bad start for the day. my bus came late,my missed 125 which was just right in front of me and was late for school. GEEZ! home,while walking to the bustop, i missed 64 which was,the same senario,rihgt in front of me. i've been missing buses right in front of me helplessly today. and i was wondering how to ease my monday blues with 4 poa periods and BAMMMM ms tan never came. alright this sound mean but at least it made my day slightly better and well i considered it as a break.
watched JUNO online yesterday. its really great. my ratings will be EXCELLANT!. that extremely great. beckett and i will be watching jumper and ps i love you this weekend. we're suppose to be mugging for common test but thought how about taking a day off studies but making sure we've studied enough. after all i'm not wanting any dampening results. enough of ranting, goodnight(:

2008-02-12T22:19:00.001+08:00

PURPLE's SWEET! braces fixed today and i can feel the irritation, the pull and it being tight.the colours i choosed was black and purple. the braces ain't pretty,its crooked. it takes time to be straight for sure. mum bought a real pretty white pumps but it's not my size so it's given to my sis. i really love it a lot and mummy is gonna buy for me. i really LOVE her truckloads for the dotes and her being understanding most of the time. ms tan was picking on me the whole lesson alright, maybe she's not but i feel it that way and fcuk it SUCK big time! of course i'll make sure i'm doing the right stuff so that she does not have any issues with me. SOBER!
darl's so distanced!

ITS STARTING AGAIN! and i don't know how to be immune to it.

2008-02-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

Life can't get any better. i'm enjoying the holidays indeed. esp when it comes to eating(: i was suppose to be mugging real hard the last 3 days but in fact i slacked! i watched the whole season of supernatural and boy i can't get enough of sam and dean. i'm so much madly in love with them. i wonder if beckett can let me have the disc. HAHA in my dreams thats what she can say. and i did not know dean acted in smallville. CUTE!
the book i'm reading is seriously highly recommended. tuesdays with morrie the same writer of the book darl read, the five people you meet in heaven. she's so much faster than me.tuesdays with morrie teaches life's greatest lesson for instance,"Learn to detach.Don't cling to things because everything is impermanent." there's many more and it struck me how people(me included) actually run around clueless about life, about what they actually want deep down. it touched it more than i ever thought.
speaking of darl, i MISS that lady. we don't even talk as in really sit down and chit chat. when was the last time we actually did that ? you know you have not been spending quality time with me but fret not i don't hold it against you. i can't wait for the day we'll be celebrating this smelly girl's birthday.
till then see ya people!

love each other or perish, something new i learnt from the book.

2008-02-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

monday blues for me. i dont know if i'm not trying hard enough but i can never score freaking well for maths as much as i try its always a just pass. maybe i'm not trying hard enough, but for sure i'm not g
iving up.
i forgot what i learnt for prepaid accruals and well there's a test tmr. gosh it means spending the last minutes squeezing everything in. ohhhhh, i swear i'm hating mt even more. i hate malay to begin with. 2 compos, shit! i dont even have the feel to do it. fucking crappy!
hey on zummy's bday clebration, we watched 27 dresses,its fucking sweet and romantic kind of movie and one missed call. HAHA zummy got a smelly birhtday bash!
OH well! as much as i try, i still cant get over the fucking fact.
i'm sorry!

2008-02-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

everyone's asleep at home and for sure its cause of the cool weather. i'm awaiting to catch supernatural before i turn in. a lot have happened this week and i'm not bothered to summarize things up. but for sure, i know who are my friends and who are just the crappy lots.
beckett and me have decided to quit blogshop after all from fatheen's experience money is not everything in life and i wanna concentrate on my studies and be a student like before. even if i'm stressed out, i rather it be cause of studies.
its sad i cant be there for beckett when she needs me. but its super great to know she's alright now. so much for me keeping a phone and yet i cant be there for her. its just phone calls away. so now i shall not put my phone on silent mode when i'm home. beckett you can call me anyitme NOW(:
ulcers every where in my mouth but its a rather common thing after extraction. i've been eating either liquid food or porridge lately and thank goodness i went on a eating spree before. HAHA(: goodnight peeps

2008-01-30T03:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16 HAIZUM BECKETT(:

its 3.36 am and i cant get to sleep. my teeth, i meant gum is aching after the extraction. ok during the extraction i completely felt numb and now it feels so 'bisa'. she pull out two teeth of mine and i hope that wont affect my speech. for instance when baby starts growing their teeth, they get sick thats the exact feeling i'm having now. next week another 2 teeth and she will put the braces behind teeth first. oh god, i did not imagine going through not only such a tedious process but super duper painful one too. and she inserted some sort of band in between my teeth and its rather irritating. i cant and dont want to think how it will be like for me when the braces is fixed. i shall catch supernatural and hope i feel spleepy. morning people(: will be going out to celebrate beckett's birthday.
blog's super boring with no pics.

2008-01-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

I'm having a pimple breakout. only 2 pimples. ok i exaggerated it was a breakout.
i borrowed supernatural from zummy a week ago and i've just watched 3 freaking episodes. i have to make time because its getting real interesting and i want to know why did the demon killed sam's girlfriend. sam and dean is so cute, HAHA! i'm actually scared out of my wits. next tuesday i'm gonna have f wires in my mouth and i dont know how to manage with the pain. in a week's time. i've to overcome this ordeal. i'm afraid real afraid. i sound like a real coward now. friends give me moral support please(: the pain, so unbearable. i'll fret it next tuesday. now lets enjoy first.
GOODNIGHT loves♥